Sometimes sun does not shine within me. Sometimes it feels like I am carrying an infinite solar eclipse everywhere I go. Sometimes it feels like I AM a solar eclipse myself. You know, there are days like this. When everything goes wrong. When all we see is chaos, and when we forget about peace, which chaos is followed by all the time.
Occasionally I have to live through mornings when all I can think about is my ridiculous life and what an utopianly absurd my motto is: ‘Dream until your dreams come true.’ The fact that my source of inspiration to dream big was created by the most prodigious druggie in the USA makes me feel even worse. And it takes me only 2 seconds to say FML out loud after thinking about all these emails I’ve sent to various magazines asking for some work experience, and remembering all these replies I haven’t received.
However, does pondering about these negative things make me happier, more peaceful and grateful for everything I’ve got here and now? I wouldn’t say so. What should I do then? Relaxing, getting rid of all these negative emotions, saying f**k it and moving on would help, I reckon. Because… Well, my life isn’t that bad. By contraries, it’s actually pretty amazing. All these things I moan about… They are in my head. Delusions, which my mind is full of, are created by no one else but me. And I am the only person who can get rid of this distorted version of reality, where I could be happier, stronger, more sophisticated and better looking.
So today’s moral is….
We all carry some kind of a source of light within us. It only takes some willingness to see it. In other words (or in words of Agnes Repplier, to be particular), “It is not easy to find happiness in ourselves, and it is not possible to find it elsewhere.” So you’d better start looking for it today!
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